Why can't I...

So many hurt feelings,
why can't I let it go
I really can't believe I let this happen,
why can't I let it go.
My mind travels back to a time, when I thought everything was fine,
why can't I let it go.

I can let go of the hurt,
the pain, the confusion,
the embarrassment, the loss,
the guilt of not knowing better,
but it just doesn't seem to let me go.

There is always a trigger,
lighter touch than a semi-automatic
and rounds of pain shoot off again.
A wound that is still open, after a year.
But I am learning how it has to let me go.

How I need to free myself,
How I need to be myself,
not feeling the guilt of how you lied,
the heat of how I cried.

It will let me go,
but why can't I...